can't change my heart from you

Love? Do you know that? I don’t know what’s mean. In my ge, 16^th, my friends has got some experience at this subject, and I? I’m not. Some time I got strange feeling. It’s deferent, my heart beating so fast seems like you running out of 4 Km with maximum speed. Sweating your hands when I close to her. They are all said that I’m in love, realy?

My friend said when you’re in love you can feel that she is always keep in your mind, followed you everey single step like shadow, warm your heart like the sun rise in the morning. You know? in the beginning I said this is not sense.

Then I asked him ”is that not bother you?”

He said “ no, but this will make you want her face coming in your dream and want  her to be your girl”.

And I said “if she is my shadow, how if I wanta pee? Is she want to follow?”

“of course not stupid!”

“now I know this is love but I don’t know any thing about girl.”

Lucky, I had friens who always help me. They are help me to ask her that I love her. It’s hard to said this thing because I never do this before. First I tried to tell some thing out of this, about her study, family and many more. At the time I said that I love her and she feel the same that mean she is my girl. She said girls loving his boy like a reverse pyramid, time by time goes bigger. Perhaps my firiends said the truth, her face never gone from my head, its insane. I can’t think all the rest, just her

Soon or latter I know this day come ture. She decide to stop this relationship. She said that I’m too good for her and she’s not a good person. I think that’s not the reason to break this up therse must be more reason, I don’t know what is that. That day i feel some thing is broken from inside it’s realy hurt me maybe that’s make my tears run down and I realy miss her.

But that’s not the end. I tried to give this heart to another but that’s no use. My hearts alwys for her. I tried to erase that memory but I can’t it’s coming again and again and again. When I miss her therse something change into me. I’m grumpy, and no patient. At the past I’m not like that, different 180 degree. Now I continue my life fill it with positive things and fun to close my grief but my heart is never gone from her. 

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